Lately I have had some people who strongly dislike me assume..
🕑 Added 2023-03-05 01:36:49 +0000 UTC
Lately I have had some people who strongly dislike me assume i am either sociopathic or insane considering how quickly i "bounce back" when things go south, when people leave me, or my life falls apart for the 87th time . I was taken back when I found out just how many people who have only met me once or twice and didn't know anything about who i truly was or what shaped me strongly disliked me. I pondered about it some, and then found even more self love and gratitude for the choice that I made today to end connections that only take, and never gave, and also were nice to my face but very awful behind my back.
However, the answer as to why I rise up so easily in the face of hardship lies in the truth of my experiences, those most still don’t know.
I will never fear my surroundings changing when my greatest memories were being whisky dr**k whilst living in a tent decorated with string lights to hide from the cockroaches in the kitchen, across the hall from a dr*g den that got kicked down by S.W.A.T monthly.
I will never fear lack when some of my greatest meals consisted of pickles, chocolate and donated ramen when I had finally decided to switch my lifestyle to a safer one and thus had no money.
I will never fear a single goodbye when every hello to date was far more sinister and painful. I will never let the lack of acceptance get to me as I know that to accept something , you must understand it.. and not many people ever could understand me.
I will never fear dying when most people’s greatest fear is a life such as mine .
People think I call myself a cockroach because of low self esteem. This however is not true. I am a cockroach because I have a thick shell, I adapt to any situation or environment; I am a solitary creature and I absolutely refuse to die .
