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Good morning dear friends, today, just because it's Thursday..
🕑 Added 2023-02-16 15:04:29 +0000 UTC Good morning dear friends, today, just because it's Thursday, I'm going to share for the first time in many years a part of this photo shoot that is very special to me ☺️ I think I have already mentioned (if not here, it was on Patreon) that I got interested in photography through therapy. It was around 1997 that a psychologist suggested I use photography as a method to learn to love myself and to identify myself with the image I saw in the mirror (something that happens to me all the time, I don't recognize myself in the mirror, I see another person, the difference is that now I like that person haha). So I started taking pictures, first with rolls of film (you can imagine the situation every time I took them to be developed and I had to pick them up at the developing store...), later around 2005 in digital (that first camera always took blurry pictures), while I kept exploring and learning to like myself. I think it was around 2007 that I discovered the existence of Flickr and created a profile, as it seemed to be a safe environment to share my private photos with some close friends and to me-t other photographers (at that time I was already using photography professionally as part of my commercial work) to show them the work I was doing (advertising, female artists, watches, fashion, objects, etc). There I met Ivan and Gabo (Argentina) and Gianorso (Italy), among others. Gianorso's work with bears had fascinated me for a decade. His photographs, many of which are now iconic, were psychological studies that went beyond a mere display of bodies. As time went by, we built up a friendship, I opened up to them, and to my surprise, in 2010, Gianorso offered to take photographs of me. Until then I had participated in photo shoots, but always in relation to my work, as my public "character". I had never done a session as intimate as the one Giani proposed. So it was November 19th. We met in a hotel in Madrid. I remember it was Friday night, around 7 pm, because I came straight from work (at that time I was out of the music business for a while, taking a break from 2007 to 2012). I took a shower and sat on the bed. I was scared. I was scared that Giani would want to have sex with me, I was scared of a thousand things, and I think you can see that in the pictures. But you can also see other things. We were alone for a while, taking pictures, until his then-partner came and sat in a corner and watched, and a little later my ex, who joined the session. And Giani was a real gentleman, exquisite. The photos turned out very nice, but I haven't shared them because I'm afraid Giani will make them public. I know he posted them on Flickr a long time ago, but I would be afraid to see them on Twitter today. I might tell him that I'll share them here and on Patreon these days. We'll see how it goes. But I would really like him to photograph me again. It would be cool to see the difference, don't you think? Happy Thursday! 😘❤️
