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Y'all wanna know the truth? ••• ••• My life is really messy...
🕑 Added 2021-04-10 02:29:20 +0000 UTC Y'all wanna know the truth? ••• ••• My life is really messy. I don't have my shit together. I am fully committing myself to stepping into whatever the fuck the universe is asking of me... And I just feel like being really fuckin' real with y'all for a minute. My trip with my friend was incredibly healing (and I created a bunch of incredible things too!) -- but holy shit was it exhausting. Exhausting makes it sound 'bad' - but really, it was everything it needed to be. There was some major shit that needed to come to the surface, and I didn't quite realize what was happening until I was in the thick of it. ••• On top of that, we hadn't seen each other since November -- and while we keep in touch (almost daily), we had a lotttt of things to share. This friendship isn't a light one. We hold each other accountable. We quite literally have a soul contract to facilitate each other's growth and healing. It's beautiful, but radically honest and goes deep. It's one of the best relationships I've ever had. ••• I've only been back for a couple of days (I haven't even unpacked yet) and now I'm packing up for a week+ trip to Texas to spend time on my fam's farm. I leave tomorrow morning. Oh, and I'm bringing my sweet Bella's ashes as well. I'm going to be doing a ceremony to honor her life, back where we grew up. Both born and raised Texas girls. ••• One more thing - Today, I had one of the hardest conversations of my life with someone I love very much. I am grieving a lot of things. I am releasing and shedding and trusting and panicking and grounding and holy fucking shit... ••• My lease ends next month. And I'm putting my stuff in storage. I am trusting my intuition. Nothing makes sense. But there is an unwavering clarity. No holding back now. I'm all in. Who's along for the ride?
